Im sitting here listening to the killers....

I realize how much I miss my grandmother...
I think sometimes, most of the time I dont weigh the gravity of things...I think its my breeding...I work a fast paced job and was raised in the world that things dont stop for you....So I find myself sitting pondering, remenising on things that happend, instances and places people long gone, relationships arye...I think of what may or may not have been done, out comes that potentially could have " changed things"

I wonder if maybe I should have seen her before she died even though I was told it was beter I didnt...SOmethings just are what they are...Ill miss our dances...our last was my wedding...She was an extrodinary woman...

I recently visted her grave, this was prior to my daughter being born...I had noticed that her and my grandfather where born on the 20th. I thought it was a fun fact...Before I left I kissed her and asked her to help us out because we werent sure if everything was going to be okay with the baby...shortly after my daughter was born...holding her in the delivery room I checked my phone and realized it was Aug 20th....
I had a much more put together entry...but alas a bogus spell check program took it from me...and the tendons are screaming in my elbows, and my eyes are watery....so I bid you all a good night...Dont forget those around us are gifts....The ones we love, the ones we meet, the one at work you think is an ass hole...Its all a gift...and no you cant change things so make it count, go with yer gut...go see them if it tells you so...itll all be alright...regret is an un quenchable thirst...

Goodnight, travel well....